Cold, Cold Water Surrounds Me Now

It's the End of the World... ohh wait, no it isn't ;)

Wed, 08 Feb 2006 21:11:29 GMT

So *yaaaay*. I also passed "History of psychology"! Yaay, Yaaay; YaaaY! I so thought that I would have to retake it in summer, but noooo *does a little dance*

And therefore... well not only because of that, but anyway:

I finally found at least 3 of the 4 Songs that were featured on Grey's Anatomy last sunday. Soo, enjoy:

Chris Martin & Michael Stipe - In the Sun <- Well it's not the version that was in the episode, this is a live version, but I couldn't find another one.

Ursula 1000 - Kaboom

KT Tunstall - Miniature Disasters

Mon, 06 Feb 2006 19:22:23 GMT

Okay just a quick note/question:

does anyone have the songs from last night's Grey's Anatomy? I only found the one from KT Tunstall :(

"And in the absence of hope I need to stay in bed and feel like I might die today."

Mon, 06 Feb 2006 15:13:13 GMT

I'm a nice person, I really am, but today I feel like "there's a land called passive aggresiva and yes I'm their queen!"

Just got back from a meeting with my workgroup from uni which was absolutely totally and obviously useless and a total waste of time. That's no news at all, normally. But the presentation is on thursday, there are two exams before that and we have nothing... well they have nothing. I got up earlier than early to finish my part and even ran to uni. So there I was... and nobody way there. After 20 minutes they finally showed up, but of course didn't even begin with their parts. Not only did I go there for nothing, no they also felt like they should discuss who's doing the introduction and the conclusion for over an hour. I'm soo glad that I know the people in my workgroups next semster. How do they think they will make it through this year like this? I mean, I'm not always on time, I'm starting my papers an hour before I have to hand them in, but when it comes to teamwork I think it's just rude. There are people who are trying to get at least a kinda good result.
Especially that one girl is like stupidity in action. She's always late, always. Even when we had this interview with a psychologist, she was like 30 minutes late because her alarmclock didn't work. How stupid is that? And now with our latest exam, she didn't pay attention and thought that the first 16 question don't have to be answered... well it was only the first 6 question, but honey never mind ;)

Okaaay, I'm shutting up now. I have to study anyway and it's coffee time! ;)

Ohh, but one thing. Got to watch Grey's Anatomy this morning and whoaaa...

The ep just rocked beyond words. It was just funny and sad and exciting at the same time all in harmony.
The beginning, George dreaming and then falling on the floor just cracked me up sooo much, sooo funny. Mer: "George I love you, I always have and I always will be."

Meredith just made me sad, I almost cried when she was in bed all: "And in the absence of hope I need to stay in bed and feel like I might die today." even though Christina bascially saved the day being "this is me being supportive".

I'm not talking about the end though... I just was sitting at the edge of my chair, wanting it to stop, because it was soo thrilling. I couldn't even close my eyes for a second. It was fast, it was intense and in the end it was just all shocking... "What did I do!" Just wow!

Well if you ask me, this is her sign, her sign that it will change. The scene they showed at the beginning could be the part from next week when everything is over, nothing bad happened, but Meredith is still all in shock. Then there is Derek, totally shocked as well, who learned after being worried as hell that Meredith is the one, that there should be noone else, who will catch her. We will get the kiss we wanted for soo long and they will see the sign. The sign that they belong together.

Yeah... I'm rambling...

Sun, 05 Feb 2006 00:45:48 GMT

stolen from darko4ever

How old were you?: 15

What school year were you in?: 9th

Where did you go to school?: Some Highschool in Lüneburg

Where did you work?: I didn't

Where did you live? Lüneburg, Germany

Where did you hang out?: Home, friend's places, the cinema

How was your hair style?: Boring straight long hair

Did you wear glasses?: yes

Who was your best friend? Kathrin

Who was your boyfriend/girlfriend?: Phil

Who was your celebrity crush? David Boreanaz from Angel

Who was your regular-person crush?: Phil

How many piercings did you have?none

How many tattoos did you have?: none.

What was your favorite band?: Sasha

What was your biggest fear?: sharks

Had you smoked a cigarette yet?: nope

Had you gotten drunk or high yet? drunk yes, although it was more like tipsy at that time, I didn't get high though

Had you driven yet?: nope

LETS SEE WHAT YOU ARE NOW !!!!!

How old are you?: 20

What school year are you in?: Well I'm out of school by now

What school do you go to? see above.

Where do you work now?: I don't work. Uni keeps me busy enough

Where do you live now?: Groningen, Netherlands

Where do you hang out?: home, friends places, bars around the corner, library

How is your hair style?: just above the shoulders, bangs

Do you wear glasses?: not that often

Who is your best friend(s) at the moment?: Kathrin

Who is your boyfriend/girlfriend?: single again

Who is your celebrity crush?: Patrick Dempsey

Who is your regular-person crush?: One of my roomate's friends who might move here soon.

How many tattoos do you have?: none

How many piercings do you have?:my ears

What is your favorite band / artist?: where shall I start... Tegan and Sarah, Mando Diau, Death Cab for Cutie, Kettcar, Stuff from Grey's Anatomy, Racoon, Wir sind Helden

What is your biggest fear: still sharks

Have you driven yet?: yes

Have you smoked a cigarette yet?: yes

Have you gotten drunk or high: yes and yes

because conformity tells me to...

Sun, 08 Jan 2006 20:06:16 GMT

Stolen from everybone

YOU
1. Name:
2. Date of birth:
3. Where you live:
4. What makes you happy:
5. Currently listening/the last thing you listened to:
6. Do you read my journal?:
7. If yes, what makes it especially good or bad?:
8. An interesting fact about you:
9. Are you in love/do you have a crush at the moment?:
10. Favourite place to spend time:
11. Favourite lyric:
12. The best time of the year:

RECOMMEND
1. A film:
2. A book:
3. A band, a song, or album:

PLUS
1. One thing you like about me:
2. Two things you like about yourself:
3. Look at my friends-list and tell what you like about one of our mutual friends:
4. Put this in your journal so that I can tell you what I like about.

Parking Lot = Odyssee

Sat, 07 Jan 2006 13:33:11 GMT

I still can't believe it, I spent over an hour in a traffic jam (no news at all) on a (yes, not kiddin') parking lot (yes a parking lot - and a incredibly small one too...).

Remind me to never a) go to that supermarket again and b)go grocery shopping on a saturday...
I will never ever complain about going to the Aldi by bike in NL again. Because basically (after today) it totally rocks. Never came to worship my bike that much before I moved there, because without it I would be like lost. Ohh wait I am lost, because the bike I bought there (for the big amount of 12€) got damaged after somebody drove into it (my fault though) and the one of my flatmate which I used then got stolen (surprise, surprise...). Maybe someday we'll see it again and say "Hey, that's my bike!" <- Reality Bites love!!

"This is all we need. A couple of smokes, a cup of coffee, and a little bit of conversation. You and me and five bucks!"

I really have to watch it again now, although I might miss my male best friend even more. That was kinda like our quote. *sniff*

Anyway, I'm procrastinating again, I really need to study. Exams start next week and I haven't even started my Paper on "Bipolar Disorder" yet which we're supposed to hand in next week as well *hides*. At least I figured out which direction I should go after graduating = traffic psychology, because it seems like those professionals are really needed (see above)...

But always end with a nice thing. Found this pic of Maura while procrastinating yesterday. Haven't seen it before so:

Surprise, surprise

Wed, 04 Jan 2006 09:35:14 GMT

You scored as Sociology. You should be a Sociology major!

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Sociology

100%

Psychology

100%

Anthropology

92%

Engineering

83%

Philosophy

75%

Biology

67%

Linguistics

58%

Mathematics

50%

Chemistry

50%

Dance

42%

Theater

42%

Art

33%

English

25%

Journalism

17%

What is your Perfect Major?
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Okaaayyy, now I know what I have to study *gg*

Mon, 02 Jan 2006 16:09:11 GMT

Put your playlist on shuffle. Pick the first 20 songs that come up and add "in my pants" (stolen from attitude_issues) Kaiser Chiefs - I predict a riot in my pants Tegan and Sara - Speak slow in my pants The Legends - Make it all right in my pants Gavin DeGraw - Anyway in my pants James Blunt - Tears and rain in my pants Death Cab For Cutie - Stable song in my pants Racoon - Love you more in my pants Sean Na Na - Double Date in my pants Lifehouse - You and me in my pants Tegan and Sara - Where does the good go in my pants The Decemberists - The Bagman's Gambit in my pants Athlete - Wires in my pants Bad Company - Rock steady in my pants Jason Wade - You belong to me in my pants REM - Losing my religion in my pants The Delgados - I fought the angels in my pants Interpol - Take you for a cruise in my pants Moonbabies - War on sound in my pants The Decemberists - Of angels and angles in my pants Placebo - Days before you came in my pants Heeeeee! Funny!

To study or not to study...

Tue, 20 Dec 2005 16:55:58 GMT

[A is for age:]20

[B is for birthday:] 29th September

[C is for career:] studying Psychology abroad(I'm technically proficient dispite some certain attidute issues)

[D is for your dad's name:] Michael

[E is for essential items to bring partying:] drinks and music

[F is for favorite song at the moment:] Paralyzed by Mando Diao

[G is for favorite game:] Trivial Pursuit

[H is for hometown:] Lueneburg

[I is for instruments you play:] used to play the piano (10 years, and now after not playing for one I terribly suck at it) und the flute

[J is for jam or jelly you like:] strawberry and rapsberry

[K is for kids?] who knows, but prolly well

[L is for living arrangements:] the most central and cool place to live in Groningen and "vacation-spot" aka. my parents house in Lueneburg

[M is for moment of fame:] Being late for class, which my mentor held, and then being greeted by him as in "Hey Nathalie, you made it!" in front of 500 ppl *hides*

[N is for name of your crush:] Menno

[O is for overnight hospital stays:] I'm lucky, none yet.

[P is for phobias:] heights and sharks

[Q is for quotes you like:] 'echt waar?!'

[R is for relationship that lasted the longest]: half a year

[S is for sexual preference:] men

[T is for time you wake up:] late, too late except those day with classes at 9 a.m.

[U is for underwear:] I'm picky... very picky

[V is for vegetable you love:] spinarch, carrots, lettuce...

[W is for worst habit:] always have to have something in my hands to play with

[X is for x-rays you've had:] knee, spine, foot twice, hand and teeth

[Y is for yummy food you make:] italian dishes, poffertjes, tortillas

[Z is for zodiac sign:] Libra

Ohh how I love conformity...

Tue, 06 Dec 2005 13:23:22 GMT

Dear Santa...

Dear Santa,

This year I've been busy!

In July I gave change to a homeless guy (19 points). In March I ruled Canada as a kind and benevolent dictator (700 points). In November I turned jo47 in for running naked in the mall (3 points). In October I put money in cathartic_prose's expired parking meter (14 points). In April I pulled its_meant_to_be's hair (-5 points).

Overall, I've been nice (731 points). For Christmas I deserve a Lego set!

Sincerely,
crazycake

'cuz I don't feel like studying

Tue, 18 Oct 2005 17:33:42 GMT

Studying bores me, so:

Type "[Insert your name here] needs" into Google and post the first 10 relevant results

Nathalie needs nuances. [okeée?!]
Nathalie needs to consolidate by winning her next match. [I have a match?]
Nathalie needs to win two matches to defend her points from last year. [interessting]
Nathalie needs to understand what transpires backstage. [do I?]
Nathalie needs your prayers. [feel free to pray for me, but honestly I don't]
Nathalie needs some graphics software. [would be nice]
Nathalie needs a gesture of unconditional trust from someone. [helloo?!]
Nathalie needs to be careful here. [sometimes I need to be careful, yes]
Nathalie needs alpine tower belayers. [wtf?]
Nathalie needs ten safety-pins. [what for?]

Type "[Insert your name here] loves" into Google and post the first 10 relevant results

Nathalie loves going to the gym. [yep, although I haven't been there for a long time]
Nathalie loves you yet. [depends on the person behind the you]
Nathalie loves her art. [What art?]
Nathalie loves cooking with her friends and relatives. [indeedy]
Nathalie loves to learn through scientific research. [to be honest? right now I don't]
Nathalie loves to discuss the Bible. [I'm anything far from religious so.... no!]
Nathalie loves to create and share ideas with others. [yep, I'm a team player]
Nathalie loves taking guests on snorkeling adventures. [would love to do that, maybe next summer when taking advantage of living so close to the sea]
Nathalie loves to unwind with a big margarita while munching on nachos & guacamole. [Oh sure thing I do!]
Nathalie loves few things more than eating chocolates while reading Lord of the Rings, Harry Potter, or any other incredibly wondrous story. [chocolate part yes, but I'd never ever read those books, not my kinda stuff]

Thu, 08 Sep 2005 12:52:46 GMT

SIMPLE QUESTIONS:
1. Name: Nathalie
2. Nickname: Nat, Tati, Piper
3. Eyes: Blue
4. Height: 5' 9'
5. Hair: Blone

6. Siblings: none
7. Do you like to sing in the shower:Yep 8. Birthday: September 29 9. Zodiac Sign: Libra
10. Religion: Protestant
11. Male/Female: Female

12. Righty or lefty: Righty
13. What's the most important thing that every relationship should have?: Honesty
14. What type of music do you prefer? Alternative Rock, Indie Rock, Emo, Latin
15. Marital status: Single
16. Are you a Virgin? Nope
17. Do you have a car? Yep
18. What kind of car do you have/want? (have) VW Polo, (want) Mazda MX5

FAVORITE QUESTIONS:
19. Movie: Scotland, PA 20. Song: Angel - Sarah McLachlan
21. Band/Singer: Jack Johnson, Lifehouse, Dashboard Confessional, Something Corporate, Coldplay, U2, R.E.M., Tori Amos, Yellowcard, Juanes, Switchfoot, White Stripes, The Strokes etc.
22. TV Show: Still ER after all these years.
23. Actor: Tom Hanks
24. Actress: Maura Tierney
25. Number: 7
26. Cartoon character: Snoopy
27. Disney Character: Dori
28. Color: Purple
29. Ice Cream: Cookie Dough

LOVE LIFE ETC:
30. Do you plan on having children: Yup
31. Do you want to get married: Yes
32. How old do you want be when you get married: How should I know. Prolly around 27 or something
33. Would you have kids before marriage: Who knows... 34. Do u have a b/f or g/f: Ouch, not a good question right now...

EITHER-OR (PICK WHICH ONE YOU PREFER)
35.Cats/Dogs: Cats
36.Led Zeppelin/The Who: Led Zeppelin
37.Letters/Numbers: Letters
38. Music/TV: Music
39. Guys/Girls: Guys
40. Green/Blue: Blue
41. Pink/Purple: Purple
42. Summer/Winter: Summer
43. Night/Day: Night
44. Hangin Out/Chillin: Chillin
45. Dopey/Funny: Funny

FAQ
46. Where do you live? the Netherlands
47. Have you ever been outside of the United States? Hahaha... All my life except visiting the US
48. Have you ever taken drugs? Nothing illegal <- But that is easy for me to say (see question no. 48)
49. What's a major turn on for you? Sense of humor
50. Your favorite food: Poffertjes
51. Where would you most like to live in the world? Australia
52. Which 5 people do you trust the most? Kathrin, Jule, Sandra, Anni and Gesche
53. What do you think of soul mates? It's scary
54. Is it right to flirt if you have a bf/gf? As long as it doesn't go too far
55: What was the last thing you cried over or got teary about? Some emotional sh*t on TV <- Yeah such things make me cry
56. What's something about guys/girls you don't get? Why boys always think that they're the best and why girls have to be so bitchy some times.
57. Are you happy? Yep
58. Why or why not? Because life rocks at the moment
59. What's an object you can't live without? My Laptop
60. Love or lust: Love
61. Silver or gold: Silver
62. Diamond or pearl: Diamond
63. Black/White: Black
64. Have you ever gone skinny-dipping? Yes
65. Do you sleep with stuffed animals? No
66. Do you have any piercings: Just ears
67. What colour underpants are you wearing right now? Black
68. What song are you listening to right now? The Reason Why - Rachael Yamagata
69: What mythical creature would you be? a fairy
70. Where would you want to go on your honeymoon? Hawaii
71. Who do you want to spend the rest of your life with? Noah 72. What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex? Hair
73. How old do you want to be when you die? 99
74. What makes you happy? listening to music

75. What's the next cd you're gonna get? Interpol - Antics
76. Do u wear contacts or glasses? Both, but mostly contacts
77. What's the best advice given to you? Be yourself 78. Have u ever won any special awards? Nope 79. What are your future goals? Becoming a psychologist
80. Worst sickness you ever had? Blood Poisioning
81. Do you like Funny or Scary movies better? Funny
82. On the phone or in person? In person.
83. Hugs or kisses? Both
84. What song seems to reflect you the most? Because of you by Kelly Clarkson
86. Do u have any enemies? I don't think so. I hope not.
87. Do you hate anyone? Hehe, yup, not telling tho... *g*
88. Does anyone hate you? Maybe
89. What time is it now? 14:48 p.m.
90. Have you ever been in love? Yes
91. Have you met Santa? Of courser holding a peace sign and asking to use your phone what would you do?: give him the phone, what else?
92. If E.T. knocked on your doo
93. Last time you talked to the person that you like? Today
94. Do you have any pets? Nope
95. What is your favorite word or saying? Dat Klopt
96. Last time you were depressed: 2 Month Ago
97. Are you an alcoholic? No
98. Who's your closest friend? Kathrin
99. Boxers or Briefs? Boxers
100. What are you wearing right now? Jeans and a black top

Pictures

Sun, 04 Sep 2005 09:33:11 GMT

aabchamp

1. A remote control (doesn't matter what it's for).

2. Your favorite chair.

3. Your bedroom. (I just moved in, so it isn't finished yet.)

darwnst_memoirs

1. your hand

2. the best light fixture in your house. (well, it's the best we got right now... haven't had any time to be creative yet)

3. something that is your favorite color.

tangledinyou

1. Your favorite drink.

2. Your computer.

3. Your DVD collection. (there are still many DVDs at my parents house... so it's only like the half of my collection)

Meme

Wed, 31 Aug 2005 17:53:12 GMT

stolen from ceruleantides

Think of 3 pictures you'd like to see. Leave whatever you'd like to see in the comments. Things around my house, outside my house, whatever- something I can take a picture of easily. Once I have enough requests, I'll start posting them. If I can't, or won't, take a picture of something you've requested, I'll let you know.

Mon, 29 Aug 2005 19:31:10 GMT

Because I haven't updated in ages:

You are:
[ ] really short under 5'2 (*sobs*)
[ ] 5'2 -5'6"
[ ] 5'7''more medium then short
[x] in between 5'7" - 6'
[ ] tall

[x] blonde
[ ] redhead
[ ] brunette -but with random blondish reddish colours from previous experimentation ^_^
[ ]dirty blonde/brownish
[ ] black
[ ] brown

[x] blue-eyed
[ ] brown-eyed
[ ] green-eyed
[ ] hazel eyed
[ ] gold/gray-eyed
[ ] bluish/gray- eyed
[x] glasses
[x] contacts

[ ] braces
[ ] piercings
[ ] tattoos -maybe soon

[ ] short hair
[ ] med. hair
[x] long hair

Your nationality ethnicity includes:
[ ] chinese
[ ] indian
[ ] taiwanese
[ ] japanese
[ ] hispanic
[ ] nicoya
[ ] puerto rican
[ ] chicana
[ ] italian
[ ] scottish
[ ] filipino
[ ] armenian
[ ] dutch
[ ] french
[x] german
[ ] irish
[ ] greek
[ ] portuguese
[ ] polish
[ ] korean
[ ] jamaican
[ ] canadian
[ ] lithuanian
[ ] native american
[ ] russian
[ ] english
[ ] swedish
[ ] african
[ ] peruvian
[ ] hungarian
[ ] thai
[ ] czech-slovakian
[ ] other
[ ] you aren't sure

Your favorite color(s) are:
[x] red
[ ] khaki
[ ] pink
[ ] yellow
[ ] black
[ ] green
[x] blue
[ ] white
[ ] silver/gray
[x] purple
[ ] brown
[x] orange

Some sports/physical things you have done
[x] soccer
[ ] cheerleading
[x] dancing
[ ] lacrosse
[ ] field hockey
[x] hockey
[ ] football [ ] softball
[ ] wrestling
[x] gymnastics
[x] swimming
[x] track/cross country
[ ] basketball
[ ] baseball
[x] golf
[x] playing in the mud
[x] playing music
[x] hiking
[x] kayaking
[x] camping
[x] horseback riding
[x] tennis
[x] volleyball
[x] martial arts
[ ] motocross

Your personality is sometimes:
[x] annoying
[x] talkative
[x] shy
[x] funny
[x] serious
[ ] bubbly
[x] spazzy
[x] fun loving
[x] laid back
[x] strict
[x] hyper
[x] weird
[x] ditzy
[x] sarcastic
[x] slow

The music you like:
[ ] classic rock
[ ] rap
[x] rock
[ ] pop
[ ] country
[ ] hiphop
[ ] r&b
[ ] slow jams
[ ] Christian
[ ] classical
[ ] techno
[x] oldies
[x] punk
[x] metal
[ ] reggae
[x] emo
[x] Latin
[ ] hardcore
[x] ska
[x] 80's
[x] indie
[x] reggaeton

The pets you have had:
[ ] cat
[ ] dog
[ ] lizard
[ ] rat
[ ] ferret
[ ] rabbit
[x] fish
[ ] ducks
[ ] chickens
[ ] horse
[ ] bird
[ ] frog
[ ] hermit crab
[ ] prarie dog
[ ] turtle
[ ] hamster
[ ] snake
[ ] gerbil
[ ] guinea pig
[ ] none

Clothes you like to wear:
[x] plain tshirts
[x] sweatshirts
[ ] stockings
[ ] high heels
[x] sneakers
[x] jeans
[x] pj pants
[ ] boxers
[x] underwear
[x] dresses
[ ] mini skirts
[x] medium skirts
[x] long skirts
[x] watches
[x] hoop earring(s)
[ ] long earring(s)
[x] stud earring(s)
[ ] toe socks
[x] flip flops
[ ] halter tops
[ ] stilletos
[x] band tshirts
[ ] shorts
[x] boots
[ ] arm-warmers
[ ] corsets
[x] club/cute shirts/tanktops/etc.

You're mostly labeled:
[ ] goth
[x] emo
[x] indie
[ ] prep
[x] punk
[ ] ghetto/gangsta
[ ] rudeboy
[ ] hippie
[x] nerd
[ ] ditzy
[x] hyper
[x] happy
[ ] slutty
[ ] suicidal
[ ] poser
[x] not sure.
[ ] everything
[ ] kandy kid
[ ] redneck
[ ] RUGGiE (like, WTF, mate?)

You eat:
[x] desserts
[ ] diet stuff
[x] no meat
[x] healthy foods
[x] junk foods
[x] a lot of carbs
[ ] meat
[x] salad
[x] seafood
[x] cheese

A typical friday night:
[ ] mall with friends
[x] partying
[x] watching movies
[x] going to the club
[ ] staying home
[ ] babysitting and getting money
[x] hanging out w/ my friends
[x] hangin out w/ your bf or gf [ ] working while your friends are out having fun
[ ] sci-fi friday, duh

Online, you use:
[x] lol
[ ] sup
[ ] =D
[x] lmao
[ ] stfu
[ ] ty
[ ] jk
[x] ttyl
[ ] lylas/lylab
[x] g2g
[ ] ^.^
[ ] T_T
[ ] XD
[x] Umm....
[ ] hah
[x] heh
[ ] oof
[ ] ded

color

Sun, 17 Jul 2005 22:55:52 GMT

1. Copy and paste this into your journal:
<*font color="yourusername"> <*b>yourusername<*/b>
2. Eliminate the asterisks.
3. Replace "yourusername" with your user name.
4. See what color you are

crazycake

Life or something like it...

Sat, 11 Jun 2005 17:01:30 GMT

So, I'm back again... Well okay, I got back on Tuesday, but haven't had any time to write. Doing nothing is keeping me busy full time you see. *g* Anyway, I had a lot of fun down in Stuttgart and Frankfurt, especially seeing Kathrin (best friend) again and Simone, because that was the only reason I went, really. Although the cities were nice to visit too =). Been there before, but only for a day or two and then got back home, but this time I stayed for a week (in Stuttgart and then got to Frankfurt for 2 days on my way home) and since Kathrin had to work I also had some time to get around on my own a bit. And it's always pretty fascinating how different it is from home, although it's still germany, especially the accent. Sometimes I even don't get what they're saying to me. So I just sit there and nod, pretty stupid.

some places in Stuttgart:

Frankfurt's skyline:

We even went to the Zoo, haven't been there for ages and it was soo funny there. Animals are just soo cool. But unfortunatly Kathrin was a bit grumpy that day, since she suddenly had a day off from work, because there was nothing to do, always checked her cell and even went to the hospital to check if there really wasn't anything to do. That pissed me off a bit, since I came to visit her, made all the way down there, payed a lot of money for the stupid ticket, she got one free day (and worked the rest of the week) and all she could think about was work. I really love her, she's my best friend, but that really pissed me off.

So when I got back partying started again on wednesday: karaoke in the irish pub. That was fun. And, owww, we were so drunk again, not nice I know *g*. We didn't sing tho, at least not on the stage... Besides that we were pretty busy flirting again, but ,ouch, apparently I was too drunk even to give that one guy my "fake" cell number, so I got a message this morning "Hey what's up, I'm back in the city next weekend and I really want to see you again. Interested?" Took me even a few seconds to think about who he was... (I know it's pathetic...). So now I really dunno if I should see him again. He was nice, but a) def. not my type (besides, I'm on my way back into a relationship again) and b) is 29 (which means too old! (I'm into older guys, but not older than 24 or something)). So I probably wont meet him again. He was just too interested in me, and I don't feel like playing that game at the moment. Especially, because I also know that it's not really about friendship or something. Anyway that evening in the irish pub was a good one, missed that ;).

And today we're out again, although it wont be more than watching some DVD, having a drink or two then move to a bar chatting a bit. On a relaxing friends get-together little thing basis. I really cannot imagine how it will be when we all part at the end of july, yeah well I'm the one that moves out in july, the other's will be here like until september, but anyway I'm the one it'll affect first, so... And we keep promising each other that we'll keep contact and meet us sometime or another, but we all now that it never will be like it is now. Especially not this year, because most of my friends are off for a social year or travel and work to the US, New Zealand, the UK and Ireland. So we don't get to see each other for quite a while and when they come back I'll have lived in the Netherlands for a year then, we'll all be different then, influenced by what we've done the last year... So we will still be friends, but it will be different. And I better stop now, I might cry otherwise +gg+

I have to go anyway, get ready for tonight, showering and stuff...

doeiii

Just Another Manic Monday

Mon, 30 May 2005 12:27:11 GMT

Yay, I'm baaaaack =)

Just got home on saturday after spending 9 annoying hours in an old VW Bus in the heat... But anyway it was soooo fun, This was definetly one of the best trips I ever had. A bunch of crazy people in a lonesome house out in the dunes, do I have to continue?!

There was nothing to do and nowhere to go ecxept for doing nothing, wandering through the lonesome wilderness of the shore and of course parting (which never ended, really). Or to say it in Johann's words "Sooo... what are we supposed to do until we start with the 3 Ds (drinking, dancing, dating) again??!!" So it wasn't anything special at all to wake up somewhere in the dunes sometime around 3pm...

And except for being a good place for partying the landscape was soo beautiful, take a look:

Guess what we did :)

Time is always now...

Wed, 18 May 2005 12:34:57 GMT

Stolen from secretgirlinside...

1. Whose picture do you keep in your wallet?
mostly pics of my best friends

2. What time do you go to bed?
depends... when I was back at school usually around 10:30, but now it's mostly between 0:00 and 1:00

3. What was the last thing you did before you filled this up?
went to school to bring my books back and talked to some of my ex-classmates

4. What are you going to do after this?
nothing ;) Watching some TV (ER is on at 3:15), give an english lesson to the girl I'm mentoring and then there's a party tonight at a friends house... oh well it's not nothing after all =)

5. Did you meet anyone new recently?
hmmm, not new new, but new again...

6. What was on your mind just now?
When to do what thing. There's so much to do and right now my organisation sucks...

7. Whose numbers are on your speed dials?
I don't use speed dials...

8. With whom would you like to have fun with?
Oh, there are a bunch of people ;)

9. When was the last time you went out?
this morning to school to get them their books back

10. Where was the last place you went?
school

11. Who do you hate the most for now?
at the moment, nobody

12. When was the last time you slept alone?
last night, duh.

13. What would you like to do for now?
Just relax
14. What do you do everyday besides eat and sleep?
meet some friends, be online chatting, checking some boards, call friends

15. What annoys you?
haha, where shall I begin...

16. What colour is your room?
white, white and even more white... although well yeah furniture is black and wooden and there are also some colorful pics and that stuff

17. What colours make you happy?
orange, definetly

18. What's your favourite thing in your room?
my laptop, and when he's not in my room it's my bookshelf

19. What was the last thing you bought for your room?
some colorstriped boxes from IKEA

20. Are there any instruments in your house?
Yup, a piano, an accordion and a few flutes

21. Do you cook?
yap, sometimes with friends. Mostly italian or asian stuff

22. Do you miss someone?
not just someone... but hopefully I will see him again next moth *sights*

23. Do you want to go and buy something?
jup, some clothes for our grade trip to denmark, new shoes, a new bag...

24. Are you satisfied with your life now?
yes, never been happier about it, really

She Moves In Misterious Ways

Thu, 12 May 2005 22:16:31 GMT

Can someone please tell me where this is leading to??

Suddenly everything starts, so now there's no way back I guess.
I went to Groningen yesterday and it was fun but also strange at the same time. Every time I go I just can't believe that it will be my new home soon. That I will walk those streets every day... But on the other hand I'm soo looking forward to go and see something new, grow again. At least I got that apartment I wanted and the girl that owns it was really nice. And she'll get my a cheap bike too *gg* (Since I can't take mine, because it will be stolen the day I bring it with me). My car would just be useless there, although I will have to go by train then every time I want to go home. But that even may be better in that case, because going by car especially in the night isn't exactly fun. Well, in the Netherlands it's okay but when you cross the border and drive on the german Autobahn it's just hell. People suddenly seem like they've lost their minds. All those Mercedes', BMWs and esp. Audis' show their evil side the second they passed the border. It's okay to go fast, since you're allowed to go as fast as you like most of the time, but it's not ok to bug all the other cars esp. if they're not as fast as you are and have no opportunity to go back to the right lane. My car wont go faster than 100mph and if there are like 10 Trucks on the right lane so I'm not able to go back there there's no reason to almost stick on my back just because I don't go 125mph. I wont be faster anyways... I wonder when they'll get that. Probably never.
But anyways it was also quite exhausting to speak dutch and english the whole day. Haven't done that in a while so I'm also excited how that will work out. I will have to speak dutch all the time, weird thought.
Luckily I had Menno with me who helped me a lot with that especially when we went to see the apartment. I was soo happy to see him again and I also hope that I will have the change to go and see him in Amsterdam again this summer.
I just don't know how to organize that yet. Since me and my friends thought that we also could go to Paris for a few days and there are still some dates we have to be present at school (like the announcement of the final results, graduation, prom... things like that :))And of course all the partying.
I'm soo locking forward to saturday. Our last grade party, that will be a lot of fun. Lots of nice people, fun and yummy drinks. I even already got myself a place to stay, since I wont be able to get home by car afterwards. Like on monday. Ohhh, what an afternoon. It was our last written exam and it took everybody like 30 Minutes to be totally drunk running through the school and the school yard. It was soo much fun, everybody was just happy, hugging each other and dancing around. You could really feel the freedom and the joy. And that's what it will be like until we get our results... Life is gooood =)

All good things must come to an end...

Wed, 27 Apr 2005 16:11:57 GMT

It's over, officially over... School's out forever!! (except for a math-meeting tomorrow and... oh wait... I forgot... the finals!) And I haven't even realized it yet. I just can't believe that I won't have to go there for a lesson ever again. That I never have to spend countless, unecessary hours being bored to death listening to unimportant stupid crap! I won't have to see certain people anymore... Yeehaaa :)

Anyway, since it's not all over yet -still waiting for the moment I can call my Mom and say "Guess what Mom, I just graduated!!" =)... (which will probably never happen, because I will be too drunk to use my cell or any phone at all!) - it scares me that I feel nothing at all about it. It's more like "Let's get it over with!". Everyone starts to have their nervous breakdowns, but I'm just looking forward to write the damn exams... But who knows, I might start to freak too when they come near...

And afterwards we finally go to Denmark... that will be so much fun, people keep making jokes about us not coming back. But thinking about our plans leaves no other conclusion.

Mon, 25 Apr 2005 17:03:10 GMT

Heh, I still can't believe it. An article of mine was published in one of the leading german daily newspapers and I even didn't know about it. It was this school project where they pick a few articles out of thousands and publish them. The headmistress was supposed to let me know and forgot about it! I just passed the board where they show those stuff by accident because I had to wait for the next class to start and saw it. Otherwies I wouldn't even know by now. They published it on the 29th of March, that's even almost a month...

Anyway it did surprise me, since I only wrote it because we had to write one to stay in the Project. I thought it was quite bad, but apparently they seemed to like it.

Awww and only 2 days to go... and then school's over and not just for summer!!! Well yeah, that also means that the finals are coming up, but I'm still relaxed. We simulated the oral exam today and if it had been the final oral exam I would have gotten an A... I wasn't even prepared. So I guess it will be pretty easy for me.

This is really weird, but since the end is near everybody seems to get along so well. I dunno, but the last week I talked to so many people I've barely or even never spoken to the last 7 years. Although people from my grade are soo different it's more like being one now. They took a picture of all the graduates today and it was so funny. It's not that easy to take a pic of 108 crazy people :)

So when I got back home I felt like not studying and watched that Desperate Housevies specieal that was on yesterday. To be honest... it was crap. It wasn't a real special. Some stupid announcer retold what has happened so far and that was it. They should've let Mary Alice told it. Would have been a lot better. Well oke, at least they showed some old funny scenes I already forgot, that was quite amusing.

I'm really proud because I noticed that I'm not watching that much TV lately anyways. Only ER and DH... All I need, oke well all I need is Carby... but you can't have anything (unfortunatly). Made me watch some old episodes tho some time ago. Watched "The Visit" and ahhhh, it made me cry... Not because of Carby (Aww, at the River, sweeet, good Carter *blushes*) just because of Abby and Maggie. Somebody should really forbid Maura Tierney to act. She's just too good... When she was sitting in the waiting area and weaver came to talk to her. It was just so intense. The desperation, everything. I better stop!!

Yesterday I was even nice to my relatives. Went to see my aunt and my uncle to give them their tickets for my prom. I just planned to get them their tickets and then drive back home, but in the end I stayed for 4 hours. We had some tea and talked about various things, it was really interessting. In the end we were even arguing about the Pope, lol.

Yes the Pope, it's a big topic here these days. "We are Pope!", was the headline of "Bild" newspaper (Crappy newspaper, you might compare it to "The Sun" in GB). I don't know. I don't care where he's from and it doesn't make any difference whether he's from germany or let's say from mars. The only difference is that he's on every channel these days and everybody suddenly seems to feel the urge to say something about him, to judge him etc. Suddenly everyone is interessted and seems to know best. Suddenly everyone is religious again. But do they really care? No! I'm not that religious, but I don't make a big deal out of it. I'm not ashamed now or something. I have my reasons and that's it. But I don't understand those people that go to church once on christmas just because they have to. They don't have to. Nobody says they have to go. If they don't believe in it and sit there alseep they better stay home. And it's the same now with the new Pope, people feel like they have to say something although they don't know a thing about him or church or anything. And everbody now is like "Oh, I don't like him he's so conservative etc.", but how do they know? Because the media says it? People should really stop believing in things they just snapped from TV or the Newspaper until they know the background or details. He may be conservative, yes, but that's what church is to a certain extent, that what church has to be to a certain extent and that's what makes church the way it was, is and will be. Otherwise there wouldn't be a church at all these days. Look at all the political systems that passed by over hundreds or even thousands of years. They changed, they got lost, they vanished, they had to grow. But church, although it has changed too (which is necessary though), stays with the same old values. It's something steady. And that's what it makes it so special, that's what the people expect and that's what people can rely on. Of course I don't agree with them to forbid anti-conceptives or to be against homosexual relationships. But that's just one side of conservatism...

And the new pope likes pancakes, sweets and fanta *gg*

And I forgot my point. Hope it makes sense, LOL... anyway I should really get back to my books ;)

Baker's Dozend

Mon, 18 Apr 2005 10:53:58 GMT

http://www.buccho.com/b12/

1. "If there's magic in boxing, it’s the magic of fighting battles beyond endurance, beyond cracked ribs, ruptured kidneys and detached retinas. It's the magic of risking everything for a dream that nobody sees but you." - Million Dollar Baby

2. "That stupid a$$hol€!! You know what? You know what? I really feel like not coming back at all, then he'll see what he has without me, he has nothing, nothing at all!" - classmate about our acting class coach after he gave her a C+

3. "You're just great, you know that?" - A certain sweet guy after looking at pictures from my trip to france last year, me climbing.

4. Hypothesis Testing

5. Moving to Groningen

6. "Life is not the amount of breaths you take, it's the moments that take your breath away." - Hitch

7. Sigmund Freud's theory is that a complex of forgotten and burried impressions underlies all abnormal mental states.

8. "She Moves in Misterious Ways" - U2

9. Elizabeth George Novels

10. Graduation

11. "Coffee, coffee, coffee!" - Mum

12. ER Promo

http://www.buccho.com/b12/

As long as the fat lady sings the opera hasn't come to an end yet...

Thu, 14 Apr 2005 16:29:37 GMT

Had my last german and sport classes today, *yaaaaaay*. What a feeling, never ever do I have to go there again and sit there bored to death... Apparently in sports we couldn't even wait for the lesson to end, we got our marks and then imediatly went away.

Tomorrow will be my last ethic lesson and (believe it or not) I'm a bit sad about that, because I really liked that class. Today we talked about world's sense. Plus we got our exams back, hehe, and I knew it: Writing about love as well as chaos and order is second nature to a Carby, hehe. Even though, my teacher's comment (besides that he was really happy that I mentioned it) to me mentioning "Chaos Theory" was "A tornado is a high-arrange structure, tho...". Never thought about that really, but it's interessting to know, would that add a new meaning referring to Carby??

Wish all exams would be that Carby (crazy mind of a Carby-Addict (I really should seek for help at a CA-meeting...)), but apparently all of my final exams are almost impossible to contain a hint of Carbyness... (except for english concentrating on "McBeth" (Mauraness on it's way ;)). I will survive them anyway *gg*, just got to know that I'm far ahead of many mates in studying... *relaxes a bit*

Weird Meme

Wed, 13 Apr 2005 19:02:36 GMT

1. grab the nearest book.
2. open the book to page 123.
3. find the fifth sentence.
4. post the text of the sentence in your journal along with these instructions.
5. don't search around and look for the "coolest" book you can find. do what's actually next to you.

"The presence of Lineley and Havers did not apear to interest them."